This morning I came to the mat distracted. I resisted the beginning. I started late. I missed the breath work entirely trying to work on half lotus at the same time.
It is amazing that I can begin to work on half lotus. I injured my hip in 2010 and through the middle of last year I couldn’t even sit cross-legged.
I am wavering in my dedication to something else today. Something I believe to be right and true.
So I thought about Sweet Teacher – her voice telling us this is a practice for life.
In wavering on dedication I lost the enjoyment and the benefit of the breath. I lost the peace of the moment. The resistance to what I have set in my path is fruitless then. I am here. I am sitting and I am breathing. I can feel what it is life to find the expansive space inside me – I can feel what it is life to work in coordination with the body and living… or I can resist.
I kept waiting for my daughter to walk in this morning. Hoping I could ask her to take a seat on my mat…She is fast asleep in her bed.